Urgent text from Open Doors:
“Christians in Northern Iraq are calling for urgent prayer backing as they’re in great danger-serious threat of beheading of all Christians in a few hours. Please forward this request to your praying friends on behalf of our brothers & sisters in Christ.”
Can I get a signal boost? This one’s important.
So some recent life developments have been going on, much to my surprise and such. And that’s ok; God can do as He wants with my life. After all, He knows me better than I do. One POTENTIAL development that I wasn’t expecting, however, came during a conversation with delusionaldreamsart, a friend of mine who lives on the other side of the world:
(the following is an edited exert from our conversations)
do you want to move to new zealand and open a community art centre with me? i need a business partner
it’s for under privileged kids
THAT’D BE SO AWESOME!!!
but utterly terrifying
Cool, get over here; it’ll be fun
or you might [be referring to] the moving bit, lol
that’s a long way from [where I live now—where I’ve lived for 18 years]. I don’t think I’d make it to church every Sunday
yes you would—just not that one (her husband’s a pastor)
[and] we’ve got great friends you could live with
they’d find you a wife
that’s definitely a good selling point
but…I’d definitely have a rough time teaching my class [out here]
you could take several here in our centre
we can get the kids to make awesome displays and decorate the walls
wow, you’ve already got this all sorted; have you been planning this?…
yeah, ages! i’ve found the building, i just need a partner with the same vision :)
my brain is doing things to me regarding this…like…it’s legit thinking about it
and it scares me
…ok, let’s get technical here then: I don’t really know much about business…nor do I have money. Like, I literally have $20 to my name right now.
i expect it would be more of a charity than a business
And that’s totally cool! But again…I don’t really have any money to assist with this..
yeah me neither really
maybe we should get jobs first, lol
back to square one XD
supposedly I can get paid for teaching my class…but I don’t really trust myself to accept money for something like this
the Bible tells us that the worker deserves his wages :)
you could be an art teacher in our local school
i don’t think i was equipped for that kind of teaching…
i don’t really see that God had it in mind for me…
although…I’m not sure i ever expected to be teaching this class either…
i’ll be honest, I’m kinda freaked out by all this
is that ok? to be completely freaked out?
yeahh sure :)
good, cuz i totally am.
the idea that this [could be] really in God’s plan…
that’s…unnerving—in a kinda cool way
but that’s a long way from [here]
this is gonna take a lot of prayer…ALOT of prayer
come out and visit first if you want
as awesome as that sounds, i certainly cant afford it any time too soon…
i feel the muscles in my neck tensing up somethin’ fierce…been noticing that happen when I’m particularly emotional
although it’s not as bad as it’s been [in the past]
…i still don’t know what to think about all this…but definitely praying it over
the world is your oyster!
i do like seafood; oyster’s pretty good i think. I’m particularly fond of eel.
i don’t like seafood
twas your analogy.
no wait, that was a metaphor.
so many thoughts…
have fun! i’m off to bed meanwhile
pffffft, alrighty… sleep well
(some time later…)
Stiiiiiiiill thinkin’ through this whole thing…
cool, any major epiphanies?
None yet…cept for the initial thought of “I’ll finally be stepping out into this side of life”. And my mom initially thought I was crazy and I had to elaborate the fact that I wasn’t just thinking all this on a whim.
Otherwise, nothing new that I can see..
well i’ve got 2 exciting things to add to the mix
1. i’ve potentially found us another partner
2. I’m going to show you a picture of the building we’re going to buy..
looks pretty grim right now
and apparently it’s haunted
maybe disregard the building. i don’t think that helps my argument
it needs work
i’ll do the work
I’m cool with helping with that…since I’m not good for much else.
The “haunted” bit is rather concerning…any thoughts on that?
Looks nice otherwise
if it is, we pray over it!
Definitely a good idea..
So the new potential partner. Elaborate
oh yeah, one of my reeeeally long time friends on dA
i told her about my plan and she’s up for it haha
shweet, haha did you tell her the part about the weird me?
well, it was fun while it lasted
was that too emo?…sorry…
but anyway, so far they sound more potentially potent than I do…lol
well we’ll see!
this is all still so new and surprising and confusing and cool and unsettling and fascinating and unnerving and awesome and terrifying
well i think the most important thing to consider is the feasibility. Like this isn’t a project that would pay, so you’d probably need a job and stuff. Casual work is easy to come by here but it depends what you want to do :p
lots of art
and that’s not simply a dream, it’s pretty much all I can do…art and other artsy things
yeah.. sadly it doesn’t make for a good living often haha
yet it’s the only thing I see in my future at all—I don’t know if God wants me to marry (though it’s forever a dream), I don’t know where or how He wants me to live, I don’t know anything at all, but the closest I can say I’ve come yet is to say I really I think I was made to be an artist. A varied one, but one all the same
we could have a shop section in our building open a few hours a day/week with all our handmade stuff in
YAYZ! positive motion!…or “Forward Motion”, to quote my own Tumblr. I feel like I should post this conversation in a thing, maybe get some thoughts and prayers on the matter (ohai guyz)
prayer is always good
i mean i still have NO idea how this is going to happen, financially at least
so prayer is good indeed!
but big dreams are good, and God will give more and more confirmation if it is to happen
I am a pretty big dreamer for a little guy…5’4”
REALLY?? we could have the most perfect secret-handshake with our synced stature!
which would be properly administered if I lived out there. So that’s another step toward NZ
and a synced victory dance for when we win at life
which will be all the time
except I can’t dance
I just ruined everything, didn’t i?
nah it’s cool, we’ll make it work
Maybe this potential imaginary wife you mentioned [for me] the other day will teach me to dance…
I’m having one of those weird moments again
Like, I can see it all now and stuff…
A woman who’s beauty is far beyond my deserving; gentle, yet insistent on pulling me—lovingly—out of my lines of personal discouragement.
And for some reason I see her being taller than me…which, I don’t think I normally do
temperate and godly, with the law of kindness upon her lips (proverbs)
NYOHMAGOSH WOMAN, you’re making it too real!
I’m scared again
She sounds so cool…and that makes me so nervous!!
I don’t suppose you’ve met her yet?
hmm… i don’t think i have. i’ll keep my eye out
Thankies…you sounded like you really know her well
Tell me more!
i will, but another time—for i have to sleeeeep :)
let’s keep praying about this dream though!
SIIIIIIIIIIGH…kkz…thanks for all this; it was encouragement
So here I am now…still thinking this all out. Moving from California, where I’ve lived my whole life, to New Zealand? That’s a big trip, and quite a lot of change…I can’t say I’m sure what to think about all this…but I’m putting it all in God’s hands.
So what about any of you? Any thoughts you wanna share on this development? Prayers are most definitely welcome—both for my decision, as well as for Sara’s dream of developing this facility.
Here’s to wherever He takes us next…
My dear children, I write this to you so that you will not sin. But if anybody does sin, we have an advocate with the Father—Jesus Christ, the Righteous One. He is the atoning sacrifice for our sins, and not only for ours but also for the sins of the whole world.
—1 John 2:1-2
"no weapon forged against you will prevail,
and you will refute every tongue that accuses you.
This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord,
and this is their vindication from me,”
declares the Lord.
"…And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”
So alot’s been going on in my life. Sadly, one of the things that’s occurred is the need for me to take a break from Tumblr. The simple fact is that while there’s a lot of great stuff in here, there’s also a crap-ton of needless garbage (note: this is not intentionally directed at any of my followers or the people I follow). And I’ve realized that, for the time being, there are things here I’m better off staying away from altogether. Yes, Tumblr has filters, but they aren’t always consistent or accurate—things get through, more easily than they should.
And so for now, I’d be best off waiting until a better day arises before I feel comfortable in here again. I will still occasionally drop in to check messages and perhaps even post a time or two, but generally speaking i’ll be spending my internet traffic in (somewhat) safer quarters.
If you wanna contact me outside of here, email me at firstname.lastname@example.org, or check out the links at the bottom of my about me page, which can also be accessed via my main blog page.
So for now, à bientôt—not goodbye, but rather…see you soon.
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- born in summer, greatly prefer winter
—in fact, I love cold, and I can’t stand heat
- there was this one time I basically overdosed on milk
- I have an odd fascination with gears, clockwork, and Rube Goldberg machines
- I prefer over-the-ear headphones, partly because most earbuds literally make my ears bleed (evidently, the shape of my ears REALLY isn’t suited for solid earbuds…)
- Coffee makes me sad
- I pretty much had no idea I was Mexican until I was, like, 7-8 years old
—in fact, I think I believed I was white
- I generally love food that’s extra spicy or extra sour
—exceptions include wasabi (cuz it’s so bitter) and expired milk (cuz NO)
- I’m currently undecided on my favorite breed of owl
- at 23 years old, I still feel playing pretend is one of the most awesome things to do with your time
- I like to drink salsa from a cup
- I enjoy hooking up an unruly number of wires to various devices
- I’ve developed a subconscious method for avoiding brain-freeze
- my favorite animals are platypus, pangolins, and dinosaurs in general
- I have a strange affinity for cute things (like stuffed animals)
- in summer I love soup, and in winter I love ice cream
- I love being in water and underwater, as well as watching marine life—but…
—I don’t like to drink water
—I can’t swim well
—and seafood is one of my favorite kinds of food
- tea makes me happy
- as a kid, I viewed everything in existence as alive, to some extent; for example:
—I could find a face in just about anything I looked at
—numbers, letters, and colors all had individual personalities and relations with eachother
—and I had numerous tales about the adventures my hands, feet, and tongue would go on together
- I didn’t learn to ride a bike (without training wheels) until my early 20s…basically, within the last couple years